I was watching Oprah today with my 3 year old grandson (who was a tad put out that I wouldn't let him watch yet one more run of Thomas The Train.) I told him it was Grandma's turn to watch the TV so he sat next to me and fidgeted the whole time. No matter. At least I got to watch the show.
Today's show was filmed live in Mississippi which has been deemed the fattest state in U.S. Oprah and Bob Greene are kicking off their new campaign the Best Life Challenge. It seems everywhere one turns in this new year that there are challenges galore. I'm not knocking them!. I'm participating in several actually! But what it got me thinking was...how fickle I am. How fickle we all can be when it comes to losing weight. It seems like just as I'm ready to start some new plan, another one turns up that catches my eye and I think...maybe I'll try that one instead. It's as if I can't make up my mind. Hmmm...how should I lose this weight....
But listening to Bob Green talk today a little light bulb flickered. I say flickered because it actually went off a long time ago but I chose to ignore it. It's not about a diet. It's not even really about losing the weight. It's about why I overeat. Period. And until I figure that out and make some changes in my lifestyle to help me combat the overeating....nothing will ever work - or stick.
One of the biggest things I've noticed in this struggle to lose is that I NEED to replace bad habits with good ones. If you kick a habit - and don't replace it with something it leaves a hole that begs to be filled with something - and that something usually end up being food again.
Another Aha moment on the show today ~ One of the guests who lost half her weight said, "I didn't want the weight to be the controlling factor in my life anymore ." Amen to that. I worry about my weight from the time I wake up until the time I go to sleep. I even dream about it sometimes! Really! Every mirror I pass, I check to see if my butt looks huge in what I'm wearing - if my gut is hanging out over my waist band - if my upper arms are waving in the breeze...and the answer is always yes - yes and yes! I avoid certain situations where I may run into people I haven't seen in a long while. I think about my next meal pretty much as soon as the one I'm eating is over. In short - my weight controls my life right now!
Does any of this sound familiar to you guys? (I know it does.) I call it the Fact of Fat. Well...I want to be in control of my life! I want to not worry about all the things I worry about now. So I guess I need to do some searching here and see what triggers the binges. And then find things I can substitute for them. Food is the drug of choice for many of us. It numbs heartaches... soothes bruised egos... combats boredom... manages anger. But there are other ways to handle those emotions. Food doesn't. It only makes things worse.
No epiphany has happened here at Lora's blog. Same old stuff I've always known.....but never wanted to think about. It's always been me vs. the food. Now other things are coming into play and I think that it's going to be a good thing. I really do!
I'm even more determined now to make this year be the year. Things are falling into place. Where they should be. And that my friends is what will help the pounds fall off.